Who Am I?

I have no idea what I want to do yet as a sophomore in college! Some people are so on track and have every day planned out until they graduate. Not me. I'm taking a lot of random classes trying to figure out what in the world I'm supposed to do. I'm usually fine, but sometimes I get really anxious about it. College is not cheap and I wonder if I'm wasting money and time because I haven't narrowed anything down. One of these weeks that I was stressing out about this fact, I went to church with my family and Pastor Rick Lorimer gave this message: "It's always a mistake to decide what you want to do before you discover who you want to be." Wow. That puts things in perspective. Have I been working on me?  Am I becoming the woman I want to be, the woman God has purposed me to be?

This also goes for dating and relationships. I think girls can be very picky and have super high standards for guys. I know I do. And that is good, but am I becoming the woman who that Godly man I am imagining will be drawn to? It goes both ways. I need to work on me and become the woman I want to be before ANYTHING else. I like to switch the quote around to say, "it is always a mistake to decide what you want to do before you discover WHOSE you want to be." Am I of the world or am I truly God's? I know I am the latter, but I know I stumble and love the world too much a lot of times. It's always good to kick things around and self-check. I need the mindset that says "Gods is the ONE for me" (As Rick also said in another message) and "I am HIS 1st."

I guess this is what I have been learning lately, that though I need to be aware of the people I am surrounded by, I also need to be aware of me and who I am becoming always. It's funny how it works. Many times if not always, I mirror the people I am surrounding. To criticize everyone I am around is to criticize myself. I need to ask myself more often if I am the kind of person I would want to be around. It's a tough question and not always easily answered. But it is important.

That's all I have for this post.
You are dearly loved...